Wednesday, September 19, 2007
 

Pity Post: It's Not Fair

I don't even FEEL like elaborating on all this, hospital stays and all, and I know people are much worse off than myself, but it still doesn't make any of the following any better:

-blood clot, left leg
-pulmonary embolisms, both lungs (1 each)
-aalllllll the pain that resulted (rule 1: clots HURT)
-anemia
-iron IV infusions weekly, taking 4-5 hours
-2 hospital stays
-1 severe allergic reaction to an iron preparation with threatened ICU visit
-being on blood thinner (just like everyone's grandparents)
-getting PT/INR levels checked often because of blood thinner, which is notoriously tricky to balance
-1 other ER visit (not counting the 2 that lead to hospitalization)
-increasingly pathetic veins because of all the blood draws and IVs
-lots and lots and lots of blood draws
-lots and lots and lots of IVs
-whatever that dye is that they give you before a CT scan, the one that makes you hot all over and makes you feel like you're going to barf
-echo test, which bares too much skin for my taste
-ditto ultrasound of upper thigh (location of leg clot): too much skin
-swollen esophagus = painful
-making inconvenient adjustments to meds schedule
-adding more meds- State insurance must love me
-taking liquid oral iron = most disgusting thing I've ever tasted (and that's twice a day)
-bruising and bleeding easily because of blood thinner
-wearing a opaque white thigh-high support stocking for a year because of embolism risk (fashion statement of century)
-ease of tiring because of clot-recovery
-swollen leg and foot
-can barely kneel at work
-can barely kneel at church
-have to have a colonoscopy next week to check for occult bleeding (re: anemia)-- that means drinking the gallon or whatever of the poop making liquid that tastes gross (but probably not as bad as the iron)
-that colonoscopy would be the day after the neurologist appointment (pounding migraines), just incidentally
-the neurologist appointment is the day after the therapy and psychiatrist appointments, also just incidentally
-psychiatrist wants to try a MAOI because the usuals don't seem to cut it. Who takes MAOIs anymore?
-because of clot, can no longer take the pill, which had also helped my acne, and now have pizza face
-missed all my sick days at work at beginning of fiscal year (July) when clot happened
-get exhausted at work
-clot formed in a vein next to a ligament, causing extra pain; scar is now located there too, of course

I'm probably missing stuff, but there's a rundown regarding why I'm feeling rundown. Lethargic. And so, so, so tired. Body-tired. Bone-tired.

Don't get clots.

Elvisette philosophized at 10:19 PM